in 12h,
happy new year.

in 36h,

happy my birthday(:



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omg.i think im too excited to blog

BUT I HAVE TO.
or else, with my bad memory i'll probably forget anything.AHH!!

okay.went out at arnd 10.30am
OKAY I KNOW I WAS LATE.
but i couldnt help it!

anyway,
while we were walking to nydc, im COLD.im not too sure if i was VERY nervous or its because im just plain COLD.

JULIAN WASNT LATE TODAY.
omg.i made the gathering shorter by half an hour.
IM SORRY MY FELLOW MATES

he was sitting at the other end while i was sitting at the middle.
THEN HE SWITCHED PLACE.
awww.i was blushing like mad. hes sitting beside, and infront of me.okay hope all of you understands my low class eng.
but anyway,back to topic.
he started shaking hands with everyone and like asking for names.

first he turned to his right
"Hi.You are?"
and it was some julian the second.
OMG.
so cute

julian: oh!julian the second.-then points to himself-julian the first.

AHH!
then grace,someone else i dont recognise, and joyin.

aft that.

HE TURNED TO ME.

julian(smiling his MEGAWATT smile): hi.you are?
me(rather softly):yuqing
julian:har?
me(normal tone):yu qing!
julian:OH!YUQING!you sent me lots of emails!(:

omg.
so damn embarrassing can!

i was like : eh, ya.

then aft that we kept talking(:
as in both of us(:
i dont know why but i just cant look straight into his eyes because i know i might end up blushing which would be sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo malu-ating.
hahahaha.

madness!(x

we even discussed about jamie's bill.(okay jamie i know youre going t hack me when you see this)

ah.

so
sweet(x

he TREATED US OKAY!
so gentleman.

julian(the second) peeped 'cause julian refused to tell me how much was the total.

IT WAS


S$178

awwwww.

i was.

me(leaning forward):julian how much is the bill?
julian(does the 'shoo' waving sign):nahhh.nvm.

oh ya.forgot about his cheese cake.
he ordered this 'goldmine' he said was very nice.
but he didnt eat it!he offered it to rach and vanessa but they didnt want,
so.

julian-puts the cake infront of me-:nah.try it!its nice.
me:ehhh.i dont want!

but it stayed on my table for a rather long time before i gave it back to him.

me:julian!finish this!
julian-points to my side-:does anyone want?
me-turns-:anyone?
*everyone starts shaking their heads
julian:aww.have a bite, at least.

ALRIGHT ALRIGHT.i cant stand it!

so i really ate a small bite(:
courtesy of julian(((((:

but im quite sorry for myself i cant discuss about dogs with himmm.):
but wells.HAHA.

took photos and stuffs,
say byebyebyebye.

went to the washroom!
when i came out i find some of them gathering outside.

i asked valerie:why are all of you waiting here?
valerie: julian's in the toilet!!

and he came out talking on the phone.
shld be about his filming thing.

so cute.rach and others started taking pictures again.
and he went like,

"again?"

THEN HE STUCK OUT HIS TONGUE.

omgoodness

so cute(:


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just finished watching home alone 3.
some CD we bought in thailand.its original!(x

anyway, it was NICE.yes.PRETTY.haha.

5 shines for it!

yaaa.

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i really hate the mood i was in aft the dream in the morning.

stupid dream.
arghh.

its the kind of dream that you really hope that it would happen when you know it yourself that if it ever happens,
its either youre in dreamland, or pigs and cows are flying arnd.

totally impossible.

-rahh.

check out my week -->

(obviously on the right column)
yes.

shld be going tomorrow.

okay i'll try t gather my courage and go!
ya whatever.

i vividly remember my dream if i used the word right.

but who cares about that, anyway.
okay im obviously crapping awayyy.

i hate that feeling.
but i would like to have that dream again.

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today is tiring.but fun!((:


st nics is.


GOOD(:

i love it.lols.okay maybe im like, saying it early.but,wells...
anyway,i really like the butterfly story the vp told.

ahh.really relates.

aft the orientation, rushhed to KALLANG kfc.

(:

fiona is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
prettayee(:
we almost got to shoot the adv with her.aaawwww.

but anyways,
loads to tell.



mr julian hee lic hua just made me appeased.aw.im so weak


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i just feel like crying.

he posted the msg,
as expected.

i know that im not supposed to be replying.
but i just got softened down.

aft a wait for like 3 or 4h.

what we got was.

he couldnt make it.


if i say that i hate you.
im lying.


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i know i havent updated for like years,

BUT I M A BUSY WOMAN.

lol.


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i hate to put a false front.

but i hate it more to let people see how im really feeling and everyone gets into the same mood.



so many happened this year.
i cant take it.


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i'll be strong.i wont cry.i'll be very strong.

get a life.

i knew i cant do it.
ms yuqing.what are you trying to prove.
prove that youre strong?
prove that youre so weak that you'll fall aft like, failures?
prove that
prove that
prove that.

what.

you wont gain anything from crying all night.

ive decided maybe my depression is back.

no one will pity you, you idiot.


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i give up.

i told myself not to cry but i cant do it.

i dont know im just plain feeling very down
or because i really cant take all thats happening to me.

i feel so apart.so lost in this city.so out of place.

do whatever you want to do you damn god.

i take back my word.

god

is so unfair.


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ahhh!!lze recording album.

i shld be happy.but its w/o sly!!

grr.

heard that kenn would be the vocalist.ahhh.sly's better lah):


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argh.just now was so embarrassing.

i went t control station to get my auntie's digicam.her daughter was supposed to be passing it to me.she called me and said that she would be there arnd 20 mins.and told me to walk arnd first.so i decided to find . something lah.

i looked arnd mini toons, then went into this hallmark shop.
i saw this cute lil cabinet with two 'drawers' i lifted the thing up to see the price, one of the 'drawers' apparently dropped.the PAINT of the EDGE dropped off.
and im supposed to pay for it.

common sense is, i wont bring cash out cause i thought i'll only be taking the cam and coming home.who knows this thing will happen= =+
i wanted to tell the person if i can leave my number or something there and come back next time.but they dont trust me lah!!that someone(i think is the manager or something) told me to call my friends.PLEASE!everyone is sleeping/at sch/live not near cwp.
but they insist.what crap is that?!

i called xuan.
aft that my aunt's daughter called and ask where i was.i told her everything then she said she help to pay first.


gawd damn embarrassing.
and that idiotic shop assistant followed me as though i will escape.
plain crap

yuck.

their attitude sucked like hell.at least they could be nicer with me or whatever?
that manager looked at me like im a very wanted criminal.ugh.

i swear i'll nv buy anything there. unless until certain circumstances.


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i need t pack my luggage soon.


rahhhh!


three days to korea.

not really very exciting compared to tw lah.
but, well.heh!

i really want t see boa in person!!!!!!!

but.
iwanttseehim):

I WANT TO GO TAIWAN!!!

gwy!if youre reading this,
which will be a dream then,

i need a ticket!!!!


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gr.so.so.

yuck.

im bored,
and jealous.

anyway, shes
just soooooooooooooooooooo unprofessional.
i think so far ive kept my mouth rather tight.i only told sher jie!:D


grrrrrrr.

oh!and jamie!!!omg!!must elaborate on the settvtrip ah!!!



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its either this, or that.

this way, or that way.

both with equal sacifices.

but the other is my dream i promised to realised.
but,.
but.

sigh.
i have, no idea.


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ahh.oh no.ahha.
im starting t........
well, cant tell=X

xiao ren rawk!!ahh!!!(:
so cuteeeeeeeeee~~

wahahaha.





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♥KJH